I can imagine myself walking in the sunset, holding hands and smiling. Hearing the crash of the waves as a gentle breeze flows through my body and hair. Walking miles and miles, while the moon rises high into the sky. The whole world is asleep, but I am the only one living a dream. The graceful peace, settling into my heart. For once I actually feel alive. This is what it should feel like. This is how you're supposed to live. A longing sense of comfort. And as we lay on the sand staring into the night sky, the stars become brighter and multiply. Soon enough, the dark sky is brightened by each star's shine. We close our eyes, hand in hand and lie in a moment of silence when all we can hear in the background is the calm waves alining upon the shore and the light night breeze. We make a wish and lie together in a few more moments, appreciating eachother for everything we are. We then both open our eyes to the diamond-like sky, staring for a brief moment as we then both turn to eachother, lying on our sides. I am looking into your eyes and you are looking into mine. I look at every inch of your body, then interlocking my eyes into yours once again. I inhale as you take a deep breath. I then begin to speak in a soft whisper. I tell you this is everything. You are all I've wanted. You were in all my dreams. You love me the way I wanted. You care for me like no one else has. I appreciate everything you've ever done for me, everything you've spent on me, everything you've said to me and everything you've felt for me. You are the only one I want. I am in love with you. Please keep me forever. Locked away in the eternity of time. You are different. You give me ideas. Thoughts, feelings, unlived visions of places I've never been or never knew existed, walking beside you in every one. It may be simple to state how I feel about you and say I love you a thousand times, but it is all too complex to fully give you the understanding of the meaning of the immense amount of love and appreciation I have for you. I tell you you're the one. You're everything anyone could ever ask for. I am thankful to have you in my life. I love you. I then pause and look into your eyes. You don't say anything. You can see the moon reflecting onto the calm ocean. A warm chilling feeling flows throughout my body as I watch you begin to slowly close your eyes and bring your body closer to me. Your face inching towards mine. As I close my eyes, I take one deep breath, tasting the chilled ocean air. I slowly bring myself closer to you, as you put your arms around me. I can feel your body heat and your soft hands touching my body. Our lips then touch. We kiss. Passionate, gentle, everlasting. This one kiss expresses all my thoughts, feelings, emotions and every little detail of every little existing idea, dream, form of all the words and feelings that I've developed for you. That moment, it was all unveiled. We lied there for minutes, sharing this dream we both created together. As we slowly move our faces away, I lay my head upon your shoulder and your arms around my body. The night had never seemed so bright and beautiful up until this day. It's like the world turned and everything completely changed. Everything was clear and I can actually breathe and feel each beat of my heart pound against my chest, as the blood slowly flows through my body. I can feel, hear, touch, taste, see, smell and understand everything, in what now feels like what is heaven. Lifelessly floating on a cloud, feeling fully alive. The feeling of being so unrealistically content and that a perfect life and person can exist is far beyond anything I could have ever perceived. You are my savior and meaning for existance. I thank you for everything you will do and being there, always. We lie, staring into the sky feeling the air get colder as the night becomes later. It doesn't bother me though. My body is filled with a warming sense of completion. Everything I'd dre amed of having is fulfilled, finally. I close my eyes and daydream once again of having and sharing this same exact moment with you. Soon enough the stars slowly fade away as the sky becomes lighter and the light of the sun pierces through the sky, slowly rising as time repeats itself once again. But this time is new. The feeling of being reborn into a life that you feel you've lived every single day. It feels so right. Life is beautiful with you. I appreciate things much more thoroughly. I love you. I always will.















Really though, that's funny OP because a few months ago my wife and two of her Russian friends have decided to get our parents a nice Christmas present, a trip on the cruise ship to the shores of Mexico. They thought since our parents are still in good shape (in their late 60s early 70th) they should easily survive something like that. Ladies were also smart to point out that in a company of four parents my mother was one who took a cruise once before and will sure be able to figure out their way around the ship. The second member of our travelers knew a little English, hopefully enough to not get lost in Mexico. The main point was supposed to be a leader of the group, my friends father who spent full three years on a submarine some 50 years ago while serving in Russian navy.

   Suppose I didn't give it a good enough thought as I was very busy with my work at the time, or the deal cruise company was offering was too good to pass or whatever but they got the tickets. During all these couple of months parents were showing signs of not really wanting such a generous gift but our wife's did their best convincing parents that all is for good and they will have a great time there. All seemed to be ok, right 'till the first bad sign.

   Three days before the departure we received a phone call and person on the other side declared one of our parents is in a hospital with a chest pain and a possible heart attack. Hmm we thought, could be a problem as that lady was the one knowing some English. Not sure about others but my Mom started saying she doesn't really want to go quite a bit louder. I used all my creativity to convince her that American medicine is the best and our lady friend will be out of hospital in no time. Well I was almost right, old lady was given a good load of antibiotics and a kick out of the hospital the very next evening, no heart decease was found.

   The night before the departure all the last instructions regarding what to take for a trip and what to not take were given, the weather was checked for the last time and all seemed to be fine. Next morning I noticed my Mother didn't look so good, she said it was a bad night and she couldn't sleep maybe because her blood pressure was up. I figured this was the second bad sign but she assured this wasn't that big of a deal. Moreover, everyone was already on their way to my place while our family SUV was ready for a trip to Long Beach, port of departure. Once they all gathered around the car I asked for the last check of tickets, documents belongings etc. All seemed in order and we drove off.

   Already on the way I took out my Galaxy wanting to set destination just to realize that no internet was available, apparently yesterday night while updating firmware all the T-Mobile APNs got erased from my unlocked Verizon phone (had to use friend's sim to do the update). My car navigation by the way stopped reading DVDs with maps quite a few months ago but I hate that stupid thing anyways and never bothered taking it to a dealer. There I clearly saw a bad sign number four but instead reached for directions from the website printout someone took along and thought, what could be easier:  take 5N to 405N to 710S and look for cruise ship terminals sign at the end of the freeway.

   Two and a half hours and lots o f Russian stories later we were approaching our destination, just to find ourselves at the end of 710 between three exits: Queen Mary Terminal/Downtown to the left, Terminals A through G in the middle and Terminals H through L or something like that to the right but surprise surprise-no sign for Cruise Terminals in sight. As any smart guy would do I sure took the middle way and we ended up in a center of a huge sea port on a quiet Sunday evening, about 1,5hr until departure and not a single soul to ask for directions. My passengers in the mean time started showing signs of sea sickness and expressed all their love to the Titanic they did not want to board anyways.

   Another half an hour later with some help from the local harbor police we finally found ourselves at the main gates. Nice man in the uniform took my people's luggage and showed the way to the ship. I said all the best wishes and a Happy Sailing and drove away back to San Diego.

   You probably think of a happy ending, not so fast my friends.... . About one hour and approximately 100 miles later I am receiving a phone call from one of our travelers daughter, she says that the submariner wasn't aloud to board and if I could turn around, go back and pick him up. WHAT!!!??? Yep she said, he forgot his green card while his wife took hers! Damn, another bad sign I thought to myself and turned around. I sure hit all the traffic this time but was there in no time (Checked the signs for the cruise ship terminal again but first one sure only appeared after the main split to Queen Mary terminal and the rest, how could they make such directions)!
   Our old man stood there all alone but didn't seem terribly depressed; "told them I didn't want to go all that much, had all my sailing done years ago" he declared. I replied there was much cheaper ways of getting read of his wife for a few days, we had a good laugh and then went back home.

   Today another phone call, this time from my sister........ from Russia at 3am their time! I thought something terrible happened but no, it was about my Mother who could not sleep another night (apparently antibiotics they gave to her roommate didn't fully kick in just yet) and called Russia to say just how bad the trip is going and how good of a present she received this Christmas.

   By now suppose you want to know the funny part? Well, here it is: the trip has started on Sunday, today is Monday and they will be Happy Sailing until the end of this week while stormy weather and heavy rain starts tomorrow. Probably should have taken a picture of four of them yesterday, just in case....

   

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