i just stopped reading the secret. couldn't get into it. finally picked up though this

 

i read beginning first pages and it's very interesting on the explanation of first experiments of psychedelics. LSD was first used for stopping uterine bleeding due to the serotonin compounds found in LSD before anyone ever knew it'll make a strong hallucinogen . haven't got to DMT yet since i just read the introduction. seems though things like LSD,DMT,mascline(found in peyote), and psilocybin somehow connected to serotonin and are found in the tryptamine family which is an amino acid that out own dna produces for well-being.

DMT is actually considered Serotonin's cousin in the tryptamine family and is considered the gateway to reaching higher levels of consciences and reaching what lot people claim the spirit realms and always has  a higher intelligence working through them through their experience. through these experiences people had unexplained psychological and physical cures(cancers, schizophrenia, drug dependence, alcoholism,ect). i will continue to read this cause i find it very interesting.

 

it was pretty good start but getting near the ending it just felt like an old record. when you read to a certain point you realize you don't ncessary need to continue. overall it was interesting and good theory overall rick strassman had but not too well constructed of information of anything different from what i already knew digging into natural botanics and herbs. i find the current book i am now reading is far more interesting than DMT:The Spirit Molecule.

it's called: The Cosmic Serpent:DNA and the orgins of knowledge.

not only does it dig deeper of understanding with shamanic rituals of botanical use but he has an interesting theory behind everything by eliminating his typical rational left brain way of thinking and seeking into more wider part of the picture and a wider aspect of possibilities not hindered by logical thinking. he tries to combine the unexplainable into a logical understanding in a way to make the avg person on their way of thinking to try to grasp the larger picture of things.

not finished it yet though. been taking my time with reading since i end up going crazy cause of mind overload. i had few occasionally where i thought of the possibility of me going crazy or just insane like something wrong with me cause when i read i tend to think a lot to figure every possible answer and meaning to everything with endless questioning and questing my own answers of possibility me being very very wrong or trying to dig deeper. i take break but when i finish it i let you know. i like to take my time and fully break everything down with full analyzing and piece everything back to see the larger picture of things.

let you know though, from what i already knew and been finding out reading and experiencing there is a much deeper understanding to things in our lives then this typical ant farm we live in. i just know it. it's just a sense i have that i can't explain.

The novel is part of the Virgin New Adventures series, starring Bernice Summerfield, a former sometimes Doctor Who companion who Paul Cornell created to wank off to. Being one of Lawrence Miles earlier works, I expected something raw, iffy, but conceptually interesting. And it is. Read 20% in one sitting. Submarine-inside-a-dinosaur.

Reading a universe from nothing, by Lawrence Krauss.

It was recommended to me by youtube commenters, then I saw it at Kinokuniya the next day, our fates were intertwined, I take such exorcistic rapture in nihilism.